Absolutely shitting it

Excuse my language, but I’m really anxious atm. I don’t know if I have made a big mistake but I signed up for a work program abroad because I really need a job and there not many jobs for young people where I live. It will be for 6 months and I will be sharing a house with some people.

I’m so scared and I have to travel a long way on my own by plane. I have SA and sometimes it’s bad and some days I can get over it. I feel that this will just make it worse but I cannot back out of it. I did travel on my own once to see family but it was only a hour plane journey. I might have to take two flights just to get to where I will be working.

There is no backing out now I said to myself one day fuck it I’m going fuck this stupid anxiety and now I’m getting scared and anxious closer to leaving 😭😭😭😭 I literally just want to cry