the struggle of not fitting in

something that has been chewing me up lately is the view of not fitting in. since my younger years i always knew i was different. it was not until my freshmen years was i given the news. ever since then it has loomed in the back of my mind. i try to understand the society i live in. i took steps to show it that i was somewhat normal. people say be who you are. i have been shown that i cant. i do not think i will ever adapt to a point with my current life status. i write this to seek help and guidance. this is my secret i share with you. whomever reads this. these thoughts fuel my depression. knowing i cant fully show who i am to have a connection. in the end i may just be one of the 22. if i could only show her or someone a day in my mind. just maybe they will understand.

sincerely

a saint