I hate fucked a woman yesterday and that's all what I want to do now

Everyone knows I'm a nice person, and usually I'm shy, but I'm very comfortable in my own skin and getting more demanding / direct in most my interactions with people.

Anyhow this woman was my best sex and obviously kinkier than most, I never really did this before, but last week she did that something angered and hurt me, yesterday I went to her place to "hate fuck her" and talk about it after, I really didn't know I had it in me.

But I went in without saying anything, pushed her on the bed and used her in every way possible while slapping her, hitting her and not even letting her take a breath.

I managed to do it because I really didn't have any much of good feelings about her, but at the same time I completely let go and just did whatever the fuck I wanted to her while intentionally causing her pain.

The thing is that she was cumming every two minutes, and even came from giving me a blowjob without even touching herself.

this is very hot for me, but I can't imagine doing this with someone I actually care about (even though I hugged her and cuddled with her after because I know that is what you're supposed to do).

Anyhow to people who do this, can you actually get in that mode with your SO? is that kind of rough sex normal? or is it porn induced fantasy? I think a lot of what I did came from porn but I really didn't think anything through at all.