Maybe im just fucked up

So I've recently joined Reddit and more recently found this sub. I joined because I'm none other than an "exmo" I'm currently 19 and left right after I graduated high school. I was raised in the church and all of my family on one side is hella into the church. But I never really gave a shit, and it seems like scrolling through this sub that I might be the only one. Growing up as a kid ya I thought it was tight as hell that the homie Joseph established the "true church" but as I developed I didn't give two fucks and realized it was all bs. I just went through the motions until I could stop feeling like a p.o.s for not coming. I kind of feel bad that I never really connected with the church but I sure as fuck am happy I didn't. So maybe I'm just fucked up for never really buying into the church but I hope I'm not the only one.