I just wasn’t good enough

I’m a senior in college and I’ve been throwing out applications like crazy. Almost always these fall on deaf ears and I never hear back from the company.

Reluctantly, I decide to attend a career fair where I talk with a lot of companies, big and small. A few eventually reach back out to me, one of which is a pretty big name in my field.

This is very exciting for me because at last I have a chance at, not just a job, but a fulfilling and prestigious job that isn’t contracting work (I live near DC so the only stuff around for me is contractor after contractor)

I go through the interview process. It was tough but I felt reeeeealy good on 3/4 interviews. The second one I was pretty shaky on. But I figured since I got called back after the technical round and into the HR round things we’re looking really good.

Then today, a little over a week later, I got the rejection email. I just wasn’t good enough. I thought I did so well and that I might finally have a job in a location I would like, doing fulfilling work, with a competitive salary. I got so excited, but I just wasn’t good enough.

Now I’m back to having no job prospects upon graduation, no hope of moving to a new area, and seemingly no way in hell that I’ll find any work that I genuinely enjoy. I really have no clue where to go from here. I’m so worn out from class and feel so devalued due to this whole job search. I’m just really really disappointed