Unhealthy ENFP?

So i did the test a couple of times over the past year. I got INTP, INFP, ENFP, ENTP and even ISTP once. But none of the descriptions quite resonated with me. I was really skeptical about MBTI and thought it was bullshit. But it still intrigues me.

So one day i started reading into the "Enfp" type. And one of the "unhealthy ENFP" descriptions i found really nailed me. I was really shocked.

Basically i feel like a shell of my past self.

I am: Extremely cynical. Dissociated, detached from my body, detached from emotions, apathetic in a way. Not caring about anything. I'm slighly impulsive. I have self-destructive behavior patterns. I'm extremely depressed. I feel empty. Lonely as fuck. It goes on. I struggle to express myself. I'm paranoid. Scared of people. Even tho i want to socialize im almost completely isolated. Living in my little dissociated bubble. Complete lack of love for myself. Almost aloof at times. Extremely anxious almost all the time. Nocturnal.

People tell me all the time that i look and act like a heroin addict. Because im so, dead. Even tho i have sparks of enthusiasm here and there. My humor is really dark. And pessimistic. But people can certainly find me funny.

Can somebody help typing me? I'm ever so curious to find out.