I crave older women...been wanting to be with one for since as long as i can remember...

I am constantly having a sexual fantasy to call any older woman, "mommy" and have an ABR with her…im 27 and even slept with a woman twice my age. I crave older women, or women who are mothers, sexually or even romantically. From childhood, i was always around older women who loved me as their own son. Looking back, i think it started with this woman who was a family friend who now is in her early 60s. Yet she looks like she's still in her 30s. I wanted a wife and woman like her. I would talk to her like we were lovers even wanting her to cuddle in her bed...falling asleep in her arms, wanting to be breastfed by her...making love with her. Then there was this other family friend who while my brother, sister and I were camping..., while in their camper...she invited me in her sleeping bag to be cuddled...as my mom was not camping with us. I at first thought it was nothing but i gladly accepted. Of course thats as far as it went. So ever since, all i ever crave is an older woman. I cheated on my last girlfriend with an older woman, and though it was wrong nonetheless, this older woman was everything in a woman i desired. She initiated everything. She took care of me sexually and physically. Not only was she older...she was a redhead mother. I slept with her twice. The sex was amazing...best i've ever had. Relationships with older women (even women who are mothers) are more healthy for me i come to find out. All the females who were younger than me that i've dated were terrible.

Then i've been frequenting asian massage parlors where the women are older. Each visit I will start calling the masseuse, 'mommy/momma'. I want to be breastfed by them. I want to make long passionate love with them and have a "mommy/baby" relationship. Any advice on how to share this kind of kink with a partner or where to go and find a woman who's into it?