So agitated by everything

I’m 25, live/work abroad, & currently visiting my parents in my home country for a while.

I haven’t been back for that long at all but I already can’t wait to go home. I feel so claustrophobic & ready to snap at my mom every time she comes near me. I thought this trip would be a good idea & make her happy but I didn’t think in advance about how I would feel spending a month with her.

The nagging, asking for favours & backhanded comments are giving me this internal rage that I really dwell on in bed at night. I wish I was a happy, helpful, tolerant person. But I’m constantly irritated and depressed and in need of space and wishing I could get on the first flight back without hurting anyones feelings.

I just want to be back in my studio, in bed by myself in the dark, & not have to act happy or act like I have it ‘together’ for another second!