I have immense anxiety going back to work and want to quit so badly.

I hate my job.

I'm going back there tomorrow.

I just want to fucking quit so badly, I get anxiety just thinking about going back there. I felt so much better having my week off. Mentally and physically.

I just really don't want to go back. Another 11 hour shift tomorrow.

But if I quit what the fuck am I gonna do then. I'm 20. Work as a shops assistant/cashier. Live with my parents. They say it's okay if I quit (because they say that you have to work your entire life anyway, might as well enjoy your younger years etc) but I'll feel like a failure and tbh I wouldn't want to go looking for a job again.

I'm so messed up and sad and anxious I can't sleep and I have to be up at 6am. I really don't feel like living right now.

(Also just going to add this in here. It's 100% not being lazy. My workplace just sucks (legit I'll give you the details if u want to). I'd be over the moon going to work if it was something interesting and cool but this just sucks.)

Thanks for listening.

Pls help/comfort me if u can I'm literally going to have a panic attack.