I just want to put the pieces back together

What initially started as 2 months of DB has now turned into 2 months living separated. It fucking sucks. The distance. The coldness. The legalities. Not seeing my kids for 5 days in a row. The lack of companionship, friendship, intimacy. This whole situation just sucks. I wish we could just work things out between us and start over. I hate not seeing the kids for 5 days. I miss us doing things together as a family. I miss my wife. I would have done things differently reddit if only I still could.