Relapse after 3 years (25/F)

I really thought I was over this. Turns out I'm not.

With great strength, I have been able to minimize the damage so far, which is great, but the urge is still very much there. I am just really struggling right now and I don't want it to get any worse; I was doing so well in terms of SH.

I don't think I have to explain to to you guys the feeling that I'm longing for, and I don't want to trigger anyone else by describing it too vividly. I'm getting triggered by the thought alone already...

So, please, help me out here. Maybe share some techniques you use when you're feeling the urge to do it. I really want to prevent a full relapse.