Shrunken

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today a man told me i was getting big  

he added hand gestures to his statement
widening them with each breath
did he knew i grew a human
a life form was evolving in my womb
i was feeding the two of us with
careful precision over and over every day all day
worrying, thinking, praying, wondering
if i was doing it right
that i lay in my bathtub every night
begging God to let this one stay
to let this one live a life with us
did i say anything to this man
i shrunk because that is what we are supposed to do
the fire in my heart only burns a certain few hours a day
and then i give in to defeat
and because there was just too much
to say