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MickeyLater

Almost out of cigarettes and almost trying to quit for the 2000th time--please send good wishes if you will!

As always I spent every penny I could on cigarettes, even denying myself things other people take for granted so I could cover the huge cigarette taxes. But soon I'll be out of cigarettes and I literally have only pennies left for the next nine days. My food is secure and I have a place to live for the rest of this month, the internet is covered, and I have a few fares on my public transit fare card that can't be cashed out. Beyond that I have no choice other than to do without cigarettes for the next nine days with zero money to spend on distractions to make it easier. And everything about this familiar long-time room I live in just screams association with smoking cigarettes. Wish me well if you're motivated. I'll take any encouraging words or advice I can get.

Posted Mar 21, 2018, 12:13 AM UTC

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marmitoni•

Ugh good luck 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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[deleted]•

Prayers are welcome! I'm an atheist but nobody really knows.

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marmitoni•

No worries me too. I just like the emoji. ;)

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whats_going•

When you realize there is no such thing as addiction to cigarettes...you'll never want another one. Strange, huh?

It's because for you, the addiction is gone. Too many bad memories.

And here's a quote by Mark Twain, he hears you...

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/150414-giving-up-smoking-is-the-easiest-thing-in-the-world

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wekiva•

I hope you are successful in breaking your drug addiction.

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[deleted]•

Thanks. I got angry about how smoking has robbed me of all quality of life for so long, just because the government wants to think it's really clever in raising taxes through the roof to induce people to quit. But it was completely deranged for me not to have stopped smoking much sooner. I've been trying and just haven't succeeded, and now I'm forced to succeed.

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pepsiman2000•

I'm gonna be that guy but...

Have you tried vaping? Like actually tried it with good equipment? Almost everyone I know who used to smoke has switched over. You can also control your nicotine intake and taper it over time if you want to quit completely. And the side effects from vaping aren't nearly as bad. Also, it's waaaaaay cheaper.

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[deleted]•

I tried the cheap gear that looks like a fake cigarette, and it didn't do anything for me.

I ended up breaking down this morning, explaining my situation to a roomie who doesn't have much more overall than I do, and he gave me a few cigarettes. So it's over because my life was really over a long time ago, and I'm just a ghost now. At least I sometimes try to make helpful posts on Reddit. That's something.

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pepsiman2000•

Yeah the cheap gear isn't worth anything. It's waaaaay different to vape off good gear than cheap gas station garbage. I have a pretty good setup and if I load it up with 12mg nic juice, it'll knock me off my feet.

I'd highly recommend getting a decent setup, some of the cheaper kits run around the $40-50 range (comes with the mod, tank, coils, everything but batteries), then a few bucks for some decent 18650 cells and then whatever juice you want. I used to own a kanger kbox mini kit which I think was $50 shipped. It's a bit of a tough pill up front if you're hard up for cash, but if you think about it costing only a few packs of cigs, you'll have started saving money pretty quick depending on how much you smoked.

r/electronic_cigarette has some good resources in the sidebar.

Also, liionwholesale is the cheapest reputable source for batteries to save you the trouble of looking through a bunch of shady chinese vendors. Samsung 25R (what I use) are like $6 a pop there.

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drewleann9531•

You caved. That’s not okay. Are you really going to tell me that you have less self control over yourself than cigarettes?

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[deleted]•

It sucks to admit it to myself because it's not generally true. With many things I have pretty good self-control. Tobacco cigarettes, none.

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drewleann9531•

You’re allowing a chemical to have more influence over your decisions than your own free will. Once I realized that, the habit was history.

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[deleted]•

I realized that some time ago and haven't been able to subdue the habit. What does it mean, that I am "of bad character?"

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drewleann9531•

It’s because you don’t actually want to quit.

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