I experienced something new and unexpected
This week, when I was getting in the mood, I was practising my oral skills on my dildo. I got extremely aroused, popped in several buttplugs of different sizes, and decided to move on to deepthroating practice. For this, I set the goal of deepthroating 20 times in a row, without taking it out, and then holding it in for 5 or more seconds to simulate it coming in my throat.
The weird thing is that, while I intended this to be foreplay, I was completely mentally satisfied when I finished. However hard I tried and however amazing it felt, I just couldn't come until much later because somehow, I felt like it was selfish and cold to vibrate myself to orgasm after I got so intimate with my dildo. I felt that if this was with a real person, they would feel like I was just getting it over with to focus on my own pleasure.
Sorry for getting slightly personal, but I hadn't experienced this mental satisfaction before and I thought it was interesting. Plus I don't have someone with whom I could talk about it. Has anyone else had any of these feelings?
Posted Apr 1, 2018, 2:33 PM UTC · edited
I know this feeling well. For example, a few weeks ago I visited one of my lovers, and he had asked me to wear my cage. I made him cum twice, and I did not cum myself. Afterwards, I felt extremely sexually satisfied and did not have any inclination whatsoever to masturbate.
When I sucked my first and only cock...all my practice leading up to it with a dildo always involved me getting hard as I sucked it and deep throated it. However..the day of..I wore a butt plug and listened to sissy hypno for 2 hours. Then, got dressed in my panties and stockings, drove to his place..and sucked his cock for almost 40 minutes..and I never got hard myself. I leaked a lot..but noticed I never swelled once.
I was so focused on the blowjob and tasting cock for the first time.