i don't want to kill myself

I don’t want to kill myself,
But I wouldn’t mind dying.
Not existing, rather;
I shouldn’t start with lying

Sometimes

I can’t seem to catch a break,
So why not break the catch?
I’ve never brought myself to hate,
But maybe I can light the match -

Or not.

1 https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/8n39bv/rose/ 2https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/8kenqq/thoughts_and_prayers/