Think im devolping a problem

I'm kind of terrified I'm on the road to a serious problem. I drink like 6 nigbts a week, a good night is me waking up and not getti g sick. I've gone weeks on end in the past year staying sober. I get off at 930 and I have no friends so I just drink and binge netflix to hVe fun. I enjoy drinking and dont want it to be a problem. I eat once a day and am getting fat. Ive "cut down" recently but feel good Bout 2 days sober so I buy a fifth to mKe sure i actually enjoy my night. Ive read all the typical shit about getting sober. I'm hearing birds right now and makes me feel sad. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of my fifth of captains being all I look forward to. I really dont need the typical "stop drinking/work out/ make one change a day bullshit. Hiw did you guys leVw this funk?