Emotionally Dealing With My First DUI..Help?

Hello reddit!

I got arrested for a DUI on 07/01/2018, literally the day before my moms birthday and 2 days before my own, honestly this has been the hardest thing I’ve had to deal with emotionally and financially, I have been reading articles on what I should do next and it’s all so overwhelming. This is the most irresponsible thing I have ever done and I am so disappointed in myself not only for driving recklessly but also endangering everyone else around me. I was leaving a party and I knew I shouldn’t have been driving but of course my lack of judgment and thinking I’ll be fine since it was a short drive home I got into my car and drove off, not too long after I merged onto the freeway I crashed into another car. Luckily the person I hit wasn’t injured and was able to drive off with minimal damages to their car, I on the other hand totaled my car and had to be taken to the hospital and of course that is when the cops charged me with a DUI and arrested me. I had to spend a night in jail in pain and I seriously thought I was going to die. I couldn’t even call my mom and tell her what happened because I knew that she would be so upset and disappointed in my recklessness I couldn’t bare to call and ask her to bail me out. I am so ashamed in myself and can’t help but feel myself going deeper and deeper into a depressive state and finding it so hard to come out of. I know I must take it day by day considering this is all so fresh, however I’m scared and I don’t know what to do next or who I should talk to about how I’m feeling and how I’m going to deal with all of this. One stupid mistake and lack of judgment on my part and I feel like my life is going downhill. I’m a straight A student with a 4.0 gpa trying to get into med school, now I’m not so sure that’ll even be possible with a DUI on my record. I would love to know what you all think of my story and if you have any feedback..