Place Among the Stars

^(Staring into the night sky,) 

^(looking for some sort of sign,)

 ^(looking for some meaning to the pain,) 

^(looking for any reason to continue,) 

^(looking to the sky like it means a god damned thing.) 

^(I see your reflection in other’s faces,) 

^(I hear your laugh in the quietest of times,) 

^(I know you’re around,) 

^(I know your energy hasn’t dissipated)

^(I know you’ve left this Earth a long time too,) 

^(I want to make you proud,) 

^(I want to make myself into something more,) 

^(I want to be known for more than just a failure of potential,) 

^(I want people to know my name and my words,) 

^(I want to carry your memory as a banner on my shoulders.) 

^(Yet, I’m stuck staring at the sky like an idiot,) 

^(I’m trapped in a place I don’t want to be,) 

^(Empty pill bottles adorn my floors,) 

^(Got more scars than I care to show,) 

^(Two styrofoam cups always remain hidden among my possessions,) 

^(I just want a sign that I can make it,) 

^(I want the pain to end,) 

^(I want to know if this pain is worth it,) 

^(I want to know if the stars will ever remember my name,) 

^(I’m going star shopping for my place among the greats,) 

^(with the hope I don’t burn out before I get up there.) 

1. https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/966vtj/sips/e3yp9iu/

2. https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/9625s4/is_there_a_plumber_in_the_house/e3ype4a/