r/OCPoetry•8 yr. ago

Med adjustment

Feedback Received!

Seven years ago, I was a lithium first timer.

At the hospital, they hit me with God knows how many milligrams.

Passed out.

Woke to pee.

Passed out on my way.

Orderlies got me there and I projectile vomited.

Transferred to another room.

Breath catching in my lungs, I thought I was dying.

Seven years and several medications later,

I find myself with my prescriber, facing an impossible choice.

My meds no longer work.

Lithium, she says, is the best (only) choice.

I'm amenable but push back.

What if I take this and it stops working?

Then what?

Let's stay in the moment, she says.

Unsatisfactory answer but I'm a pushover.

I consent.

Start at the lowest dose and see.

Prescription filled, I go home.

Take with food and LOTS of water.

No problem.

May cause drowsiness, dizziness, nausea, vomiting, shortness of breath and sudden death.

Sudden death?

OK. Here goes.

Down the hatch.

And me?

So far, so good.

The experiment continues.

Posted Aug 16, 2018, 12:06 AM UTC · edited