He Wanted To Touch Me. (I wasn't assaulted, but I want to die.)

A slap from an invisible hand - to hold
A self-righteous man - behold
An unforeseen plan - will show

Why couldn’t I know?

I’m so sensitive to obligation
Use alcohol to numb the sensation
Remove guilt and shame from the equation

Can they smell desperation?

Who’s to blame when trust is abused?
So vulnerable, so easily used
“I want to help you” Had I known...

I would have refused

Clearly can’t read a situation - I’m told
So friendly our relation - I supposed
You reached for me- we were close

Remove my mind from my body - 8 pulls

A blind contract - that I wrote
If I lose myself - it won’t hold
Every intention to forget who I know

My eyes, objection written in stone

Realize every smile gave him hope
All curves exist for him to grope
Back then he threw me a rope

At the end hanging was the kindest way to cope.

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/9dbsgw/i_thought_acid_would_cure_my_depression/

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/9czo06/antichrist/