Flight and a capacity to lie.

I’ve watched Flight and you see the destruction of this disease. So many of us hide behind ostensible success. And I fail everyday to cease to put it down. What’s the point? My capacity to lie remains apparently in tact. I’ve been sober for at most 30 days since I was 21. An estimate but probably around there. I’ve lied my way to this point of perdition for 12 years and it just continues. But I’m sober today. I can’t sleep. I want to drink. I want to lie and say there is a good reason for me to pick up that bottle. And I’d do it, if it weren’t for your strength in this group. So, today I’ll be sober. I’ve ruined everything in my life, but I’m breathing. So I can make amends. I can say I’m sorry. I can own up to being a degenerate drunk that doesn’t deserve absolution. But they deserve to hear it. Today, I’m sober with you.