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Posted Nov 8, 2018, 5:05 AM UTC
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This is hilarious. I'm not like that right now, but I will be again, sooner or later.
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I was sucked in a hole for months. Switched meds and I didn't know I could live life unstuck or hopeless without being on an upswing but, I know it's part of the process and it will come back.
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I once thought suicide was the answer to my keys being misplaced. Brain is weird.
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Heh heh, yeah in these times I do try to stop and think, "hmm, default suicidal setting slightly out of control in this instance, probably?".
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default suicidal setting slightly out of control in this instance
LOL, that's great.
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The girl I like said she'd buy me coffee today but then she didn't and it made me really sad. We're not even that close.
Someone else did buy me a coffee at work and it almost made me cry. I'm a mess.
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Maybe she just forgot and it slipped her mind. What I'm starting to notice is the things we hold on to and make a big deal about, others don't necessarily do that. Say something stupid that embarrasses you? In a day or two most people don't even remember. Or I've had someone go off on a rant and a couple of days later I make a reference to that rant and they don't even remember talking about it.
Point being, don't read too much into it. <- this is a problem I have
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I think she was running late so she couldn't, which looking back on now is completely understandable. So I'm totally making it into a bigger thing than it is. I do it all the time. The littlest things turn into big things that stay on my mind for hours/days when they mean nothing.
I'm working on not letting the little things get to me but it's hard when my mind works against me. Trying to work on it too.
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Trying to work on it
It's tough since our brains are wired to do the opposite, exaggerate every little thing. I try to put forward a "it doesn't matter" attitude. In this moment it seems so important, but after time most things are insignificant.
That sounds like such bullshit after writing it out. I need to work on it too, apparently.
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It's always easier to say than to do. It's easy to say that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter and it's just one moment of out many more to come, but times like things seem to take longer than others to work through.
I so wish I could let things go and move on, but yeah, my brain just does not work like that.
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This is how my student loans make me feel. Then I remember that student loans are some of the only debt that don’t die with you, so I would basically destroy my parents’ lives since they were my co-signers. So I just cry myself to sleep instead.
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This entire show is me IRL.
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Bojack Horseman is the best representation of depression I've ever seen on tv.
Oh yeah? I've never seen it or given it much thought, but I will make it a priority now. A friend who is simultaneously one of the most flamboyant and most morbid persons I know turned up as Bojack at a Halloween party. It sure would explain some things about him, and why he and I get along so well despite our differences.
It's definitely both a flamboyant and morbid tv show, so that makes sense why your friend would like it. Bojack Horseman is a show I can't watch in a depressive episode because it hits too close to home. It does a great job of showing how depression and substance abuse can fuck up your relationships. However, it's so darkly funny. One of my favorite episodes is so fucked up, but awesome. It's the chicken episode where they discuss the difference between food chicken and friend chicken.