I’m scared

Mom,

I finally did something about the low key depression that’s been kicking around for a decade now. I’m on my second antidepressant and the depression is better. Honestly. It just makes me feel incapable of any emotions. I’m a robot going through the motions every day. It’s starting to scare me more than the depression and I feel like it’s getting worse. I’m not happy. I’m not sad. I’m nothing. I don’t know if I’m ever going to be a person who has normal, healthy emotions and I don’t know what to do.