Please leave me alone....

Does anyone else notice as they get older they are losing any desire to socialize? I get anxiety about being around people because it takes so much energy to put on the act of wanting to talk and interact with them when I don’t. Also I am horrible at being disingenuous and when having to socialize that’s what I feel I am being.

I believe I have become asocial but wasn’t always this way. Many things have caused this including depression, anxiety, insomnia and ptsd.

Though I am the happiest I have ever been and for the first time in life don’t feel like I am alone, thanks to my fiancé. I still feel myself wanting to retreat from everyone else. I do realize this is a major symptom of ptsd, but I don’t see it changing.

Has anyone else had to deal with losing all desire to socialize or make connections? I would be fine with it if it wasn’t for having to function in this world. How do you deal with it?