Books? Resources?

Can anyone recommend any good books or resources on this topic, and possibly moving on and healing?

I'm trying to get the courage to leave. Trying to get my ducks in a row. It's hard. He's nuts. I own the house, so I can't exactly just give it up. I know I need to go somewhere temporarily to get away from him and let things settle.

Im trying to figure out a plan. I just don't have any resources and I'm tired. So tired. And unsure. Just tired of being miserable and being made that way. This isn't love. Even though he claims to love me so much. Name calling, threatening, emotiobal and mental abuse. Then me being made out to be the bad guy.

I just want him to love me so bad. And I'm not even sure why.