Can't fucking do it anymore

Hi, Im fucking breaking down. Its not that I want to die at all because I don't, not even a little bit, in fact its the opposite. I have a problem related to my anxiety that I don't think anyone will understand, not even my therapist, so I feel completely trapped in myself. I know I'm in control of my own reality and my anxiety, but right now it doesn't fucking feel like it and I don't want to wake up tomorrow. If anyone could talk and maybe even try to understand my craziness, I would appreciate it a lot.