Healthy/unhealthy living

Ok to make a short story long... ;) jk... long story short!

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My heart suffers ,I literally get tachycardia/arrhythmia/vagus nerve pain and ectopic beats mixed with enormous amounts of stress, deep insomnia and nightmares and even panic attacks if I overindulge myself in:

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-caffeine - from which coffee is the absolute worst. I dont react even half as bad after drinking yerba mate or green tea than to coffee. I am super sure there are some ingredients in the coffee that make it so toxic for me. It also messes up natural energetics of the heart, which makes your perception/senses not work correctly. Overstimulated is also being numb, just in the other way... Coffee feels like I am wide open, like it spreads my aura far away from my physical body, and I am vulnerable to everyone (I only recently realized why I could drink coffee alone at home and be much more okay than when I do this in a big office....)

-alcohol - this is a killer. It messes up everything. I tried to have a ''healthy'' relationship with alcohol, but even if I do drink it very rarely (once-twice per 1-2 months) I suffer 2-day hangovers and my mood needs 14 days to return to baseline. Few hours of a stupid dopamine rush isn't worth it. It feels like I am bleeding energy afterwards.

-sugar - this is a big one. It basically numbs the top energetic centers in the body. Currently it only makes my heart beat too fast.

-nicotine - I was a smoker in the past. Stupidest thing I ever did. Don't even want to write about it.

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All of those things are legal, its not a coincidence... also, some people can have relationship with some of those substances, but for me the longer I abstain from them, the better I feel and the less often I use them - the less I enjoy it!

My perception is also better, mood stable and aura stronger. It makes sense after all, to feel good we don't need to add anything- just take out what's hurting us!