Disturbing dreams

Possible trigger warning? Graphic dreams with descriptions of wounds.

So I’m not even sure what my point here will be.. I just found it weird that these dreams have started again as if to show me that I am not doing well mentally at all.

I was in a much worse place about 5-7 years ago. I was self harming every day, completely isolated myself and so on. I used to always have these absurd graphic dreams, for example of me sticking some kind of metal rod somewhere in my body and then actually seeing the inside of my body as if there was a little camera on the metal rod.

Anyway, I just took a nap (also have been sleeping an insane amount of hours per day, sometimes more than 12). Woke up and after a while remembered my dream which was horrible. I just have to write it down.

So in the dream I had scraped my knee and it would not stop bleeding no matter what. Then someone else in my dream (unknown person) pointed out that I had other cuts on my legs. And we’re talking my legs sliced open from knee to ankle. In my dream I could basically open two flaps of skin and look inside my leg. It just looked like I’m looking down a black hole. There was no blood. Just my entire leg sliced open, I could see all the layers of skin and fat but no bones or blood. It was so disturbing.

My dreams always give me an unsettling feeling when they’re like that. That’s why I felt maybe writing it down will just help me process it.

Thankfully I have an appointment with a therapist for the first time in 5 years. Just wanted to share this.

Maybe someone has similar experiences with weird dreams they get whenever they’re in a bad place?