Really struggling today

Hey guys and gals. I’ve been lurking on this page for a month or so now. Finally decided to post myself. I’m just over 6 months sober myself. This is not my first attempt, and I’ve had a number of relapses over the past few years. This time I’ve felt like it could last.

However, today is exceptionally challenging. Between my own disease, supporting my partner who is also severely depressed, and work stress I’m at a breaking point. I feel trapped and overwhelmed and hopeless if I’m being honest. I know drinking won’t help. But I’m just at a loss.

I’m on a short break at work while writing this. The absolute icing on the cake for today was that, of all days and times, one of our regular customers brought our stuff a vintage bottle of wine as a holiday gift. So it’s just sitting on the back desk and I’m doing my best to not think about it. It’s just one of those days/moments where I want to burn it all down, ya know?