Nearly had a panic attack in Sunday school

So I put my resignation in on the 13th amd im going to keep attending till the new year. I was hoping that the time chang and a little white lie on my part could help me slip away mostly unnoticed. But I feel supper guilty about said little white lie because the main catalyst for me leaving the church is all the lies they tell. Anyway im in the YSA and there are literally only two of us in my ward. Me and my BFF. She knows alredy that I am leaving and she is cool with it. But she was asked to teach in primary today so i was in Sunday school alone with three of our YSA leadere (whome i love very much) and our mission president (dont like him so much.) He use to be our Bishop for the longest time and before he was Bishop he was the one who baptized me! Obvisly none of them know because I am an introvert who is stressing way out over all of the shit that might hit the fan after i leave which might not even happen. I hate confrontation. I have been mentioning here and there how I might go to another YSA ward at the begining of the year. Its actualy right near my house where as my current ward is like 30 min away. So that is the white lie. Im definatly not goung to go there. I hate lying because I really do love these people. So the mission president starts talking about the time change in January and I start thinking about my lie and I feel so guilty. Not neccisaraly because of church indoctrination, ive had a huge thing agenst lying sense way before I was baptized (at 19.) So then I dicide in that moment if anyone asks me if I know what ward im going to go to next year that I will just confess on the spot. Then the mission president starts telling me that I can change my records to whatever ward I want to go to next year, listing them off. At this point my heart is pounding out of my chest and i just wanna get up and run out of the room like a madwomman, but I just sit there and say alright, but im seriously about to break down from the fear of confessing my hythan status to these lovely people and making them just so sad. And then . . . we started our lesson. So im safe for another week but now I feel guilty for not telling them. I just cant win lol. Thanks for reading my rambling retelling. I got flustered again just thinking about it and I needed to share.

TL;DR: I nearly had a panic atttack in Sunday school when I was almost forced to confess that I am leaving the church to four TBMs who are very important to me, and i dont want to dissapoint and lie to.