Feeling completely lost

I’m a little nervous to post, as I’ve never really publicly talked about this before- but I’m hard core struggling. I recently move across the country, started a crazy stressful job (haven’t had much time to make friends) and 2 immediate family members were diagnosed with cancer. I’ve always struggled with BED but it’s completely out of control now. I’m up to 250 lbs (5’9 female) with no end in sight. Paid for weight watchers, did it for 4 days. Started Keto, gave up after 2 weeks. It just cannot control myself. I just ate half of an order of cheese bread and half of a large pizza from papa johns and feel disgusting. I don’t know how to break this cycle and just wanted to reach out so other people know I’m here. Help?