The only person i got close to blocked me over lies, I've never felt this alone.
So i met someone on overwatch at around 4am a few weeks ago, i was playing with some randoms who were in voice chat and were making fun of her voice, i felt bad so i messaged her after the game to say sorry for the people in the game being dicks to her, she said she is used to it as shes trans, we then started talking after that. One thing led to another and she ended up making me get shapchat so she could message me and stuff as her sleep scheduled was super messed up, so fast forward to a week later and we had been talking 1 on 1 in calls and stuff and it was going well, i felt as if i had made a nice friend. She then started dropping subtle hints to suggest that she was interested in me and that she liked me. I didn't really know what to think about all of this as i was just happy i made a friend rather than anything else. Things were still going well until we met this person lets call harry. Since we've met harry its no longer just been me and her, its always been the 3 of us. Harry isn't the type of person i like nor do i want to be friends with, he's extremely sexual and seem'd to have an agenda, as time went on she was starting to not pay me as much attention as i'm not as loud while in calls as harry is, then within like 2 days she was doing what she had done to me to harry. I started to feel really shitty as time went on and started to think i was just being lead on or played. This then goes on for a few days and i manage to get her in a call with me and her so i talk to her about it for a while and she seem'd to "understand" but i felt like she just said that to get me off her back.
Fast forward another week and things were still pretty much the same, was mainly me harry and her, we then play until 5am and we meet someone in game that i think she really likes and she gets along with and so do i, i add her to the party (the person we met in game) and she then starts to get really mad at me for adding her, saying stuff about how she doesn't want someone else in our party that i don't know, and that she thinks i might fancy the new person over her. This is where my mind starts to think even more that she was just using me as i felt the same way when she added harry to our conversations, she then makes me remove/block the person i thought she would like and that makes me feel even more like a dick, while making me do this she also hung up on me and didn't really talk to me much over snapchat, essentially giving me the cold shoulder. I then felt really bad about all of this and ended up hurting myself pretty badly.
So a few days go by until where she wont really talk to me about much of anything but still talking to harry, in our group chat without me, its also clear now that harry did indeed have an agenda as he started to call her "cutie" and "baby" and wants to get something out of her, whereas i just wanted a friend, like i sent her messages everyday asking how she is and how shes doing but she either ignores me or gives me short blunt one worded answers. I decided to man up and confront the two of them about whats going on as i was seriously getting hurt over what was being said considering how i felt towards her, harry then starts calling me names like "freak" and "pathetic" because he knew i had mental health issues, i then asked her why she was letting him say that to me and she just responded with "because its funny" i was so hurt i just left the call and sat there crying for about 30mins. I then messaged her and she told me that harry had said somethings about me to her behind my back, about how i fantasise over her and want to be with her and so on, where in truth i was just happy i made a friend. Fast forward to now and i wake up to see that shes blocked me on everything and I've never felt so alone in my life. The only person i got close to, the only person i had feelings for has removed me over fabrications from someone who has an agenda. I feel horrible and have done something stupid to my arm that will take a while to heal and i don't know what to do.
TL;DR - i met someone online who i really bonded with, someone else got involved and started spreading lies about me to the person i was bonding with and she ended up blocking me over them even though they are lies. (sorry for any grammar issues, I've been crying for the better part of 2 hours and i have a serious headache)
Posted Dec 16, 2018, 11:43 PM UTC