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Why does everything feel so heavy? why is it that i would rather sit curled up in bed tearing up than do anything else? why do i feel like there's an empty hole thats eating me up? why do i hate myself despite trying so hard not to? why is it so hard for me but easy for everyone around me? why am i sitting in a house full of people yet feeling lonely? why am i sitting here sobbing trying hard but unable to accept my skin? why is everything so heavy?