To my girlfriend who I think I might love

We’ve only been going out for a few months , we’ve had are ups and downs.

I know u get annoyed at some of the things I do and I know I upset you with some of the things I say. I know I’m not the strongest or the best looking , or have abs like some of the guys that private message you.

Tonight laying in bed I realised your the first person I’m scared to lose , I’m scared you’ll run away with another man , I’m scared I’ll irritate you to a point you leave me and above all else I’m scarred your run away with one of the guys that private message you You’ve helped me through so much , you’ve helped me forget about my dark past , uve helped me become less insecure and you’ve proved so far that I don’t need to have trust issues I’m sorry it took me so long to trust you but somehow without anyone knowing Not even you. You managed to get over my wall for some reason I trust you. And I’m scared im going to do something to mess this up and I know your the first person I’ve ever loved I’m so so scared but I would love to spend the rest of my life with you already. Even though we said at the start we wouldn’t let are relationship get in the way of are careers and study but I’m prepared to give everything to stay with you. I no longer want to serve because I want to wake up to you every morning. I’m scarred of getting hurt for the first time because of the stress it would put you through I don’t know what will happen in the future but I do know. I love you. And always will x