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DreadTown

I don’t want to eat bad foods anymore

My story is pretty simple - I was overweight since I was a little kid, overfed by nannys and grandmas, never learned portion control and was very lazy, became severely depressed as a teen and became obese at 18 years old. I was always kinda trying to lose weight, but often binged and used food as a coping mechanism, so all my attempts eventually failed. Recently something clicked in me after I ripped my last pair of pants on my thighs and couldn’t buy a new pair because I gained so much weight that I wouldn’t fit in the last size, that stores in my country usually carry. After that something changed. I got... tired. Tired of always trying and failing, tired of being insecure, tired of being weak, both mentally and physically. I actually started losing weight after that.

It was very hard at first, because - I fully admit that - I’m a food addict. I want to eat a lot, always, big meals, snacks, lots and lots of carbs. It calmed me down and it’s tasty as hell. But I pushed through. I was tired of my ways.

Today I noticed something. I have an open bag of honey breakfast cereal sat on my counter and I haven’t even thought of touching it for a week or so. Usually I could eat a whole bag without batting an eye, and if something like that was open, it would be eaten no matter what, so I tried to avoid buying this stuff all together when I started my weight loss journey. But I bought this for my husband 2 weeks ago, he didn’t like it, and I ate a couple of tiny bowls, all measured out and counted. But for the last week I didn’t even want it. Not a single feeling of craving this sugary stuff. I don’t want McDonald’s anymore, I don’t want bread and pastry, I don’t want ice cream, I don’t want pizza and I have some kind of special disdain for soda. I haven’t even noticed this change in mindset until today, but it’s definitely there.

Let me tell you, after I noticed that, I almost cried. Hell, I’m almost crying right now. Because I’m so damn proud of myself.

I still have 40 more pounds to go, but now I truly know that I can do it.

Posted Feb 9, 2019, 6:15 PM UTC

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abrighterplace27F 5'6" | HW 170 | CW 138 | GW 130?•

Fuck yes.

First of all - super proud of you.

Second of all - realizations like this are nice because they're a reminder that the struggle to eat right will stop being so much of a struggle over time as our bodies adjust. You start craving the right things, habits become natural. Good stuff.

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DreadTownOP19F|169cm (5’6’’) |SW:89kg|CW:79kg|GW:65kg•

Thank you for your encouragement. :)

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I second the fuck yes!

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Daffy-Down-DillyNew•

Fucking fabulous! I feel like this most of the time, but sometimes I still have days when I have unbelievable cravings. Serious addiction! I hope those cravings go away completely soon.

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tacosareloveNew•

I'm proud of you, too! Keep going!

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Naughty_Bimbo80lbs lost•

When I started my weight loss journey I was almost 350lbs and my guilty habit was watching people eat on YouTube. It used to trigger my binge eating but then I stopped watching the videos and started scrolling through the comment section. I was horrified, especially in the comment threads of overweight creators. My new guilty habit was to read the comments and internalize what was being written about them as what people in my life probably think about me but just never say out loud. It changed from triggering my binge eating to triggering my want to change my life.

I can't watch these same channels anymore without being sick, I can't even scroll through social media and watch posts of how to make heavy, greasy food anymore that used to make me salivate. Now it just repulses me.

Another thing that helped me make a major change in how I view food... I moved into an apartment that has an oven with an affinity to smoke. It's clean & I can't figure out why it smokes so I just don't use it. I haven't owned a microwave in over a decade either so all the food I eat is either raw or has to be able to be cooked in a pot, pan or rice cooker. I eat a primarily plant based diet and the little bit of meat I do eat I buy already cooked (mostly rotisserie chicken or whole roasted turkey breast). The most convienient food I have in my house is quick cooking oatmeal.

I still indulge in pizza (my weakness) from time to time but instead of polishing off an entire medium in one sitting I portion and freeze a large pizza to enjoy over time instead.

Edited to add my current weight is 271.

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DreadTownOP19F|169cm (5’6’’) |SW:89kg|CW:79kg|GW:65kg•

Wow, 80 pounds is a LOT. It’s amazing that you lost so much, and also very encouraging (makes me feel that my goal is definitely attainable). The pizza thing is very very true. In January I had an exam at college and didn’t have time to make my own food, and I was also stressed out, so I googled how many calories were in my favourite domino’s pizza, realized that it was exactly my calorie goal for the day, and I said ‘fuck it’, ordered it and ate it throughout the day, without adding anything else. The next day I stepped on the scale and saw that I was still losing weight :) It made me very happy lol

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pointsofellieF32 5'7" | SW 180 | CW 165 | GW 140•

Yes, this is such a cool side effect of healthier eating! My first two weeks I just didn't want junk food at all. It's creeping back in now but I am eating it rarely and small amounts :)

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DreadTownOP19F|169cm (5’6’’) |SW:89kg|CW:79kg|GW:65kg•

Moderation is the key! I allowed myself some bad stuff at the beginning if it was within my calorie goal and still lost weight steadily.

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greedie1New•

Do you drink diet pop?

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DreadTownOP19F|169cm (5’6’’) |SW:89kg|CW:79kg|GW:65kg•

No, I don’t like it by association now. I only drink coffee and tea now. And water, of course.

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