When to go? (post keeps showing as failing, sorry if this is duplicate)

If you were 40 and

had totally fucked up your life

had 22K in cc debt (due to hard luck) were afraid of bankruptcy because it fucks you over/screws your dating/housing/new employment options

had only 4K you could take out of retirement

weren’t making much money

have trouble living like a pauper because just having little extras here and there are all you have to keep you going

were having a hard time finding a new job

hated the field you were in

had no partner or even a successful date

had become distant with family to where you could not share anything with them

lived in chronic physical pain making walking difficult

can’t focus

had no success with over a dozen antidepressants

had no success with half a dozen therapists

feel overwhelmed with the process of finding therapists that take insurance

feel scared of what those anti-d’s are doing to you long term

had no success with non pharma treatments

struggled with your weight

had no one you could tell it all to

had experienced the psych ward and were traumatized emotionally and financially by it- and thus will never ever return to be retraumatized (which would happen if you told people you’re checking out soon)

were tortured with unrequited love

cry when you fall asleep from sleeping alone for years

had all this going on to where you cry every day and can barely get out of bed

had been dumped by anyone you ever loved romantically

had all of your creative endeavors fail

cannot be loved for who you are given the above

I think I covered it all....

Would you still be like, “NOOO LIVE it out!!”

Or would there be a “yeah, I’d get it”, and a case for checking out to be free and clear of that mess?

I’m aware of but-think-of-the-others. I’m also aware that people make choices best for them that hurt others unintentionally all the time- I myself have been hurt by others doing what they need to do. Cannot hold it against them. Im also aware that the others are all in good, stable life circumstances, and have strong support networks to lean on where they can share it all...so it’s either one person living out the above and carrying all the pain as a martyr to spare the pain of others, or the individual getting to finally be free and the others then share the pain between them.

Thoughts? PM if what you have to say isn’t sanctioned.