dad is a psychopath

tldr at the bottom

alright so im 14m, been clean for 3 weeks and don't think ill ever go back to sh in the foreseeable future. so a little over a month ago i accidently dropped my razor blade in the car and my dad found it. she told my mum abt it and she texted me and i told her that was from a while ago and i dont cut. i got so upset i had to get out of class and throw up and just take a walk around school for a bit.

when i got home, no one said anything and then some time at night the entire family was in the living room. and my dad thinks this is the best time to bring it up. in front of my mum, my sister, my brother (although he does have autism and cant understand a thing) and my lil doggo. my sister had earphones in and couldnt hear anything but still. i just got up and went to my room and cried. he was laughing abt it.

the next day he came to my room to say sorry. he was not sincere at all. i told him to go away and he was still laughing. also my parents have been started dating again. why would they start dating again? just why? in the past 15 years hes managed to: deal crystal meth, be responsible for our family being robbed 30 grand, go to prison for 7 years, be abusive to my autistic brother, gotten seperated with my mum along with getting an avo (that's an apprehended violence order which is basically an restraining order in australia). ALSO, whenever we're out together, he sometimes asks me something like "oh, do u think that chick over there is hot?" and im pretty sure he's hit on underage girls. just eww. He's been rlly manipulative over the past couple of years and even has got my mum on his side abt the sh problem. my mum says he's been rlly depressed coz im pissed at him. so now HE'S the one who's depressed. fuck you

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tldr: abusive dad found abt sh, brings it up in front of family, laughs about it and is being a manipulative little bitch