I failed, being forced to go back to being imprisoned by my nparents don't know what to do.

So for ages my parents by all means possible have kept me under their thumb for all my life well into my 20's as pathetic as it is to say. i addition to is i'm a pre-everything mtf who fears it's far too late for me to succeed and feels the clock ticking against a succesful transition/actually being able to live some of my youth fully constantly. i'm 26 now and months in the making an escape plab i was approached about by a long distance acquiantance had finally come to fruition in february where i was whisked off to oregon. unfortunately being essentially a sheltered neet for most of my life finding a job that would accept me/dealing with all these new adjustments was difficult, made no easier by how at first i seemed to be treated with disdain and put under a lot of pressure throughout to my near breaking point while constantly failing in a job search. I finally landed a shitty minimum wage part time job at the end of march and things seemed to be going towards the future i finally dreamed of with that happening and my "friend" seeming to get off my back a bit and have some more empathy but then.. i kept being lead around in cricles for weeks on end by management that had no idea what it was doing before i could even start and eventually i just got fed up of being treated with so much disrespect after doing everything i can on my end and walked out after being made to wait an hour past my alleged start time i got there early for because i'm essentially still an idiot child at heart i guess from all this force shelteredness and years of living under abuse and tyranny..

anyway in panic when asked about it by said pressuring "friend" i lied and said i waited for an hour just to be told it had to be rescheduled yet again figured it wouldn't be an issue as i had a few other promising looking job application lined up in the area. a week later they find out, turns out they called the location i applied at for the job about and not only that but have been tracking all my online activity somehow through the isp/router. Now.. with nowhere safe left to run, i am in despair as i just ruined everything and my last good chance for a good future i can actually handle..

I am faced with being sent back to my parents in austin on the 27th who will most likely double down on their crap and make it impossible to escape again, i have nowhere to go, i'm out of options, this all.. ended up being for nothing, and anything i had to look forward to in life is gone now and i have no idea what to even do.

Seriously feels like all i have left is to just lay down and die at this point