Tired.

Since the 12th of May, I have been having unrelenting nausea. I sometimes have some gnawing stomach pain and random burps/hiccups.

I’ve been to my doctor, the ER, and then back to my doctor.

He said I need to do a CT with contrast.

I don’t think I’ll be able to drink the barium.

I’m just tired. I cry all the time. I don’t want to be nauseous anymore. I want to drink ice cold water without having to take the smallest sips ever to see how it settles.

I haven’t eaten since the 12th. All my calories come from what little I’m able to drink of gatorade each day.

I want to feel better. I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. Everyday I wake up and it’s the same battle with the nausea. Every single day.

I’m missing work. I go back to school on the 28th. I can’t miss any school otherwise I risk being dropped from my program.

I’m so, so tired. I’m so nauseous. I want life to be okay again.