My blackpill story as a currycel

Back in 2011 when I was in college and blue-pilled as fuck, there was this curry foid who I met in class when we had to work on a group project together for a semester in our research class--there were three of us in the group, me, curryfoid, and white Chad. I honestly liked her after the first week we worked on our research together, tbh I thought she treated me well, respected my opinions while we worked together throughout the semester. I got oneitis for her tbh, she was down to earth and not obnoxious and kinda shy. She didn't have a bf at the time and never talked about other guys to me.

I also thought she was a pretty good looks match to me, I'm 5'7" and she was like 5'2" so I was decently taller than her but yeah I know its 6 feet or nothing. She was also average weight, not super fit but not obese either, and she had a youthful face. There were times I got some vibes that she liked me, like she would send me texts pretty late into the night around 11 PM just asking me what was going on with our project, and she invited me out to eat lunch with her curryfoid friend another time. I honestly thought she liked me but I was too fearful to ask her out.

So after the semester ended, we presented our research together at our uni and decided to go out for drinks to celebrate--me, the curryfoid and Chad. Tbh Chad was pretty chill guy who was nice to me, I got along with him too, but this was before I was blackpilled and before I realized how much he mogged me. This guy was 6'3", played basketball and was attractive, I'd see him with girls around campus, at the Starbucks or at the cafe all the time.

We go out to the bar, I think to myself that this is my moment, I can finally ask her out because I've been talking to her all semester so it's not creepy, we're all in a good mood after acing our project and she's a little tipsy. I thought I'd surprise her with a beer, and when I walked back to where we were sitting, I saw her completely eye-fucking Chad. Even as blue-pilled as I was, I could fucking tell she was into him. They were sitting at the table, he was looking down into her big brown eyes, and she was smiling up at him, twirling her hair and shit.

I stood there like a fucking dumbass, with her drink in my hand, while she eyefucked Chad right in front of me. She never, not even once, no woman has, ever looked at me like that. I can't imagine the pure horror I would've felt if I'd asked her out and gotten rejected, she clearly had eyes for Chad only. My good mood completely deflated after that and when I sat back down they asked me what was up. I just made up some bullshit excuse and left after a half hour.

I have no doubt that they probably fucked that night, a fucking 6'3" Chad with an average looking Curryfoid. We didn't have any classes together after that so I lost touch with her. We both had several conversations about our parents, our culture, difficulties we face in the US as curries and all the things we had in common... but none of that mattered because I wasn't genetically programmed to be 4 inches taller.

It never even began.