Cravings that come up after a few months for no reason and don't go away.

I'm a functional alcoholic, but I do have a serious problem.

I've been drinking ever since I can remember and I always knew that for me it was more than just "Social drinking", I've always found social situations to drink to. Every, single day.

I never get really shitfaced, it's just a few drinks, just to get the light buzz, but until two years ago, I couldn't imagine not having a drink or two a day.

I felt that it got progressively worse, I needed more and more to get my buzz and I found myself not beeing able to control the amount.

So I decided to do something about it. The - do something abou it was going cold turkey. Oh boy, the first week was hell, mood swings, depression, anger bursts, I was like a grumpy three year old for a week or so. But on this first attempt I was trying to find substitutes, anything that would taste the same.

In about 2 - 3 months my addiction overtook me again. I kept retrying, but it got the best of me.

I went completely dry at the beggining of 2019, I did good for some time, but again, after about 4 - 5 months, strong cravings started to kick in.

And I mean - I can't get anything done, everything is f-ing terrible, I need to get my drink or I'm going to murder someone bad cravings.

The insanity of the craving just keeps groing, it doesn't go away. IT gets stronger and stronger and STRONGER until I scratch my itch.

I found myself dabbling in alcohol these past couple of weekends. I'm keeping it dry during the week, but I know that it's just a matter of time until I resume my old habbits if I don't stop completely.

How do you cope with the insanity of cravings that doesn't seem to leave? For me, there isn't a particular situation that causes the craving, I just wake up with it and it stays with me until I scratch the itch.

TL:DR I'm a functional alcoholic, that stops for a couple of months but then I get insane cravings that won't go away for days until I cave in. Any advice on dealing with the cravings?