Loneliness and can't even vent to anyone cause i feel guilty and have no one close :v

DO yall ever feel so alone, that u have to take care of ur own problems cause if u try to vent to anyone, even strangers u feel like ure making a big deal out of everything? so ur only comfort is music lyrics? Currently on the verge of a breakdown cause im accompaning an aquantance to her classes during the summer and i feel like she doesnt want me there but is too nice to tell me to frick off, cause we dont really have much to talk about. and since then ive realized i'll never have friends and ill always be alone and im tired of the paranoia :v
PS: i recommend Mother Mother-Alright, its helping me calm down.