I have cried for a first time in a year/years

I don't cry pretty much at all, i forgot about the feeling. Today i failed my last math test and since my family is the way it is, they said my summer is doomed and it will feel like jail. My dad said that my dead grandma is turning in her grave, and is definitely disappointed in me and that i should be ashamed.

Today i have been crying in my room all day, and i went out once for the bathroom.

I legitimately dont see a reason to do anything in my life than wait for their forgiveness and wait for the time to fix my grades.