I am such a jerk

maybe TW?? Idk. anyway I went to a party that my boyfriends ex wife was at over the weekend. I’ve never met her before and never wanted to because she sounds terrible. cheated on my boyfriend (who is truly the best guy) and took advantage of him financially. obviously as soon as i realized she was there I started chugging alcohol because that’s how i deal with problems sometimes (queen of healthy coping mechanisms). anyway, we finally saw her and he said she gained a ton of weight. i feel like a dick but nothing has made me happier in a while since i’m much smaller. this disease is so weird y’all. I am Mean.