No Will to live , truly broken

Learning of what circuncision toook away from me after having erectile dysfunction from a bike accident I am having trouble finding the will to live. My world has been crushed I’m only 21 spent the last 4 years in a cloud of smoke and chronic pain. Learning of Circumcisions effects has filled me with such a hatred for this system, someone else’s preference branded onto my penis. Blowjobs feel like nothing, etc just a tv ad anything. Most men are around in blissful ignorance saying they’re fine. This truly feels like a horrid drug trip that I can’t get out of.