Feel like I'm trapped, pinned down under a wave of fear.

Hello.

I'm just here to type this out as I feel I can't approach anyone with this for fear of judgement.

I'm currently going through the lowest point i've ever been at in my life. I just returned to work this week after being signed off for 3 months with severe depression. I wasn't ready to return, but I absolutely had to due to lack of money and an ever increasing level of debt.

2 days ago, I received some news that has absolutely crippled me. I'm frozen with fear and dread, I have never felt this low in my life.

A girl whom I'd slept with after a night out told me she is pregnant and that it is 100% mine. We used protection, all I can think is it ripped.

Anyway, she has already told me that she will be keeping this child and that either I step up and be a dad, or she will milk me for every penny I have, which is next to none.

I genuinely am distraught with what to do, I'm in no position to be able to support or care for a child, I can barely keep myself afloat. I don't know what to do, where to turn. I feel completely lost and swamped by all of this.

I don't want children, I don't want the responsibility, I don't feel I can give a child the life they deserve. I have no money, I'm not in a relationship with this girl, I have nothing to give.

3 years ago I was at the happiest I have ever been, work was going well, I had money, I had a fantastic car, good prospects. Fast forward to now and it's an entirely different life, I'm trying so hard to fight and rebuild myself, make it back to the right path, how on earth am I going to get there now?

Thanks for reading through my venting, I just thought it may help.