Am I guilty?

Well it can’t be called a rant as i realised I do need some advice too..well I broke up with my long distant boyfriend cz I cheated on him..that made me realise I shouldn’t be in a relationship since I have loyalty issues..call it that or whatever iam not good being in a relationship..also if it’s any worth I would like to add the relationship was toxic as hell...but coming back to the point last night I ended up drunk sleeping with my long time friend who had actually come over to console me of my break up,also I’m good friends with his wife ..(ya he is married so technically he cheated on his wife too but trust me I don’t care about that right now) and to own up this is not the first time post break up I have been involved with few guys who were single and ya Interested too..but this time its somone’s husband and I totally hate myself now..I talked to him in the morning and decided it was alcohol and never ever happening again..but damn what’s wrong with me🤦‍♀️