Reality is a funny thing.

I really thought this girl was into me, so in my mind I was feeling like every girl was into me. I was going through interactions I've had with women in the past, and seeing them as examples of the women being interested.

Now that this girl has rejected me, I don't see any of those interactions the same way. I don't see any women liking me at all.

My "objective" reality can change depending on my confidence.

I don't know if I'm attractive or not. I get all these tinder matches, and can even set up dates pretty easily, but I cancel at the last minute in case they're catfishes.

The girls think I'm handsome as fuck when I go to China, but then I have an overweight, ugly as fuck, 40 year old friend who goes to SEAsia and gets laid every night. Asians have no idea what constitutes an attractive white guy.

I had a girl ask me out on a date, raising my confidence tenfold, and then after the date say she isn't interested, completely killing it. I mean, wtf is that? (And no, I didn't act autistic on the date).

I know I'm being a whiny bitch in this thread, but damn. I just want to get laid regularly, is that too much to ask.