I dont want to kill myself but i would be content with dying right now

I dont have like a suicidal mindset right now where im wanting to kill myself, but after a lot of reflecting on myself, if i just died right now i would be content with that. is this normal? or is this suicidal behavior, it doesnt feel like it due to when i first overdosed on tamezepam i was just in a lot of mental pain and wanted to end my what seemed like endless suffering, but as of right now i dont feel that pain i just wouldnt mind disappearing off the face of the world like i was a ghost.