Okay, I lost my weight. And now I hate my body more than ever.

I hate my body. I'm embarrassed by it.

Even typing this took a lot out of me because I don't even want to SAY it.

I'm a 19 year old girl. I'm 5"4 and now back to 120 lbs from 185.

With clothes on I look GOOD. Even I can tell that. Guys compliment me, girls tell me they're jealous. I am confident. But when I look how I look like naked I disgust myself.

I didn't come from an obese family before, so I was always "suppose" to be skinny. When I gained the weight I got a LOT of stretch marks. I have stretch marks and on my love-handles and on my stomach as if I had a baby or something.

Another thing are my boobs.. when I was growing up, my moms side of the family had nobody with big boobs and they were all from Europe so they weren't use to wearing good bras like here. Needless to say, I have 38 C's and... I never wore a bra because I didn't know better until I was about 13. By then it was too late, and the weight gain did not help. My boobs, again, look as if I had a fucking baby that I breastfed.

I'm still a virgin. I'm still a virgin and my body looks as if I had a baby already. I have stretch marks and my boobs are disgusting in my eyes. I feel so bad whenever I'm around people and they make comments like "Yeah, I HATE stretch marks! They're disgusting!" and everyone agrees. Or "Yeah, her boobs were saggy." and guys would agree how gross that is.

I don't think I'd be lying if I said the only reason I'm still a virgin today is because I'm too embarrassed for somebody to even see me naked. Those mean comments above, about stretch marks and saggy boobs have been told to ME. Obviously people cannot know I have both of those unless I just took off my shirt and bra. I feel like one day the person I'm with will not expect it and it'll just be a nasty suprise. I'm embarrassed and I don't know what to do and it makes me sad those 2 things are pretty much permanent.

EDIT: Wow, you guys are literally the sweetest people ever.. seriously. These comments have given me chills. I appreciate you guys saying those things so much, I always knew my insecurities weren't nearly as big to others, but still. I always knew if I found a guy and he had something "ugly" about him I would never mind it, because I'd understand, but for some reason I didn't realize I can expect the same in return. I read every single comment and you guys have definitely made me realize a lot of things. I sincerely thank each and every one of you that posted! It means more than you can imagine.